Man, pre-flavoured packets of cous-cous are totally gross. I just ate a 'moroccan' flavoured one and ended up feeding it to the dogs and eating a Bueno instead. I HAVE GYM-ED already today, so I'm totally allowed.
I know i'll get in trouble for admitting this, but when I say I fed the rest to the dogs I mean, I fed it to them while we all sat on the couch. Freida got to eat hers straight off the fork as I fed her while Billie slobbered all over my bowl. I feel it necessary to state I had at this stage entirely given up on eating the stuff.
Yes yes, dog bacteria, human cutlery blah blah. It's in the hot dishwasher now so chill out.
I am having one of those days where I have no idea where my head is. I don't mean like when I was little and mama was teaching me parts of the body and she asked ' where is your head?" and I looked thoroughly between my legs for it. I mean more like, I have no direction today.
I guess it could be because I got my period, but that's bad news because that means i've got days of this to look forward to. You know when you're alone and there is no one to hold you accountable for things? And you end up doing stuff like sharing your icecream with the dogs lick for lick? (obviously that wasn't today's dessert. Are you MENTAL it's fucking cold today...that was on another day)
Well, I woke up and there was no one in my house, and I haven't spoken to anyone on the phone and I could've gotten away with creating a tent out of my doona and lying under it all morning making up funny voices. Something made me get up, go to the gym, come home and shower then go to the chiro. I've been so alone feeling today (not in a lonely way) that when I was at the gym, I felt like I could openly stare at the women doing zoomba and that no one would see me doing it.
Then I sang to myself in the shower and watched how the little dance I was doing made the water splash on the floor of the shower. And then when I was on the way to the Chiro - i've been going for a year and a half now, I totally went in the wrong direction and found myself half way to Fabian's uni because I was thinking of him and like a compass I seemed to follow where he actually was.
By the time I got to the chiro I bounded in there talking a little too loudly and my intonation when I said sentances was a little off.
'Hello, there Phil! How are you doing, today.'
I think the weather it starting to go a little colder than I want it to and if you combine that with feeling totally not motivated for school you get a bit of a sad and bored Nani. Which is a bad combination, because when I'm like that I tend to pick fights with people who don't deserve it.
Can I just add, what the fuck is it with almost all pads now being 'odour neutralizing'? Firstly, why the fuck are all the Australian brands spelling things with z's instead of s'? Secondly, if I have my period it's meant to smell like fucking blood not like lavander. I could find ONE brand that was just normal pads. Ugh.
Okay, that was a little bit out burstish - hopefully this period won't be one where i'm completely vague and out of it interspersed with short outburts of annoyance.
Stop talking about periods now.
Nani x
