Write Off

Today was a complete write off!

Well, not exactly a write off, but it just did not go how I planned at all.

I was in one of those luscious deep sleeps that I don't think an alarm would've gotten me up from. I was instead woken up gently by Fabian, who'd already gotten up and had a shower. What?! I wake up to the sound of the tv or kettle being turned on downstairs and even to the smell of cigarette smoke.

Weird. Then I went to the gym, which was probably my only successful venture. It started off not being anything special, I was having a sook over how sore I was thanks to yesterday's triumphant return to the gym.

But then the guy that works there, his name is Joe Love - I kid not. Who's usually dressed in work gear and some lamo cap, walks passed me dressed instead in a singlet and shorts in order to work out.

DAYYYUUUUMMMMMMMM.

That inspired me to be much better looking. So, once I picked my jaw up off the floor, I upped my weights by 5kg and started pumping them out and going 'ARRRRGHHHHHHHH' when I was lifting them.

If you don't know the sound i'm describing, I suggest paying attention to the next weight lifting competition or the olympic games - I pay homage to the pros.

No really, Fabian is delighted I actually scream out at the gym, he can't believe I'm not too shy to. Let's be honest, you'd have to be some sort of massive freak to bench 13kg without shouting it out.

Anyway, then I went to Chadstone to buy myself an ipod. I thought i'd done adequate research. I knew I wanted an orange one. It was going to be a nano. 8 gigs. I even knew which cable I wanted to buy that would connect my ipod to my cd player! That's some pretty good research you may say, BUT YOU'D BE WRONG.

So I go into the shop, I tackle one of the people dressed in blue (If you've never been to the Apple shop at Chadstone I suggest going, it's a wonder.) that are running around at the speed of light. There are about 50 people working there ALL occupied with something.

Anyway, I get Marvin (perfect name for someone working in such a futuristic shop. Amiright?) and I say 'Hello, can I please buy an orange nano ipod 8gig please?' (Yes I often say 'please' and 'thank you' one too many times in the one sentance.)

Off he goes, gets it for me, and then asks me why I'm buying the cable. OH MAN, this unleashed the terror. He was so kind, he didn't sell me anything. Once he discovered I had no idea what I was talking about he spent almost an HOUR with me teaching me all about i-pods and he's even getting me to take a photo of the back of my cd player so he can sell me the right cable.

What a guy!

Then, off I go to uni. Or so I thought.

I got lost. I got so turned around it wasn't funny. Before I go on can I mention that Uni and Chadstone are two places I frequent - A LOT? As I was driving I was thinking how spectacular a day it was! Everything is so sunny and bright, and then I was in the city. What?

So I turned around and then I was on Dandenong Road right back near Chadstone. Whoops.

Turn back around...and I won't bore you with the story, but I never made it to uni. I'm pretty certain I was experiencing a pain-free migraine. I was photo-sensitive 'Oh how bright everything is!' and disorineted and by the time I got home (finally) I was right because I did eventually get the pain.

Pretty funny in the end, though a little scary while it's happening. I felt like I was going through time portals and ending up in all these familiar places but never quite where I wanted to be.

Anyway, I'm at Fabian's now and my migraine has been dealt with and i'm in a brilliant mood! I'm excited about what i'm working on in pottery, though I can't talk about it on here because it's a present for Fabian's graduation.

Shhhhhhhhhhh

But I am feeling good about it and my timetable for next semester rocks. Though I'm in a bit of a predicament:

I can do a 4th year subject to make my work load easier when i'm actually doing 4th year next year. That's a plus! The downfall is that the only subject I can do (thanks to timetable clash and pre-requisites) is Integrated Pharmacology/Phytochemistry and that sounds HARD.

There is no point in doing a fourth year subject if I'm going to fail it.

That being said, am I really going to be much smarter in a years time? And also, maybe it's better for me to fail it now (if i'm destined to) so then by the time I am in fourth year i'm just re-doing it - which is easier and it means I won't be failing it in 4th year.

Failing something in 4th year is the worst thing that could happen, by the way. It would mean having to wait another year before I graduate. Bad.

So, what do you think?

Love N x

Hairspray

It's done! Work is finished.

I am now spending some time musing what I will buy with all my new cash. That's right NEW cash!...perhaps I emphasised the wrong word there, new CASH! CASH MONEEEY!

Well, an i-pod is definatelly on the list. I mean, it's just one of those seemingle necessary items I just don't have and never have had and I can't be the only person in the world without one, amiright? I am. It's going to be some wonderful bright colour.

I am also most of my way through a delicious giant block of white whittakers chocolate. Do you want to know why that's exciting? It's exciting my little darlings (my many many darling readers...I can't pretend like I don't know you exist anymore!) because I thought that they had DISCONTINUED making this gem of a chocolate.

So we all know that Whittakers makes Cadbury and Nestle and all the other brands it's little bitches because it's made in New Zealand and it's so gorgeous and ethical and tasty.

And let's be honest, white chocolate has been on a massive decline since Cadbury etc started fucking with the original ingredients - it started tasting pretty bland, flakey and weird.

Whittakers saves the day though! Woo! Delicious, tasty, sweet real tasting white chocolate! Get on it.

So what else? I made my triumphant return to the gym today, which was successful in the sense that I actually went and was non successful if you look at how much good working out I did.

I'm starting to gear up for the end of semester now. I'm just putting the finishing touches on my last 2 assignments and when they're done and dusted i'll start exam revision! Wooo!

Out of my 5 subjects, I've already sat the exam for one which was laughable. (It was counselling, like that was going to be hard.) I just need to hand in my journal which has been annoying to write. It goes something like this:

'Today I decided to just speak up and say what I think in class instead of worrying that the other people there will judge me. I had to remind myself that all the other students in this class are Naturopaths, and why the hell would I care about what they think. It's not like they know anything anyway.'

True story.

I'm expecting my period any minute and I want to try and have a handle on all my assignments before then, because during my last 2 bleeds i've been completely loopy. It's because i'm Xue Xu (which means Blood Deficient, for all you non chinese med readers...which is all of you.)and when I lose blood my brain stops working. Yep!

Now i'm off to do an assignment for musculoskeletal traumatology, i'm doing the knee (thanks Chloe for the hands on knee experience!) and the neck (thanks migraine inducing neck of mine!)

Love to the hundreds of you,

Nani x

P.S It has been brought to my attention that though I thought I'd fixed the comments issue on my blog it infact wasn't working!

Gah! So I've fixed it now (I think) and you should be able to comment now if you want even if you have no google account. You can comment annonymously telling me I have a big butt and i'll never know it was you. (Though I will know it was you Fabian.)

<3

Cous Cous

Man, pre-flavoured packets of cous-cous are totally gross. I just ate a 'moroccan' flavoured one and ended up feeding it to the dogs and eating a Bueno instead. I HAVE GYM-ED already today, so I'm totally allowed.

I know i'll get in trouble for admitting this, but when I say I fed the rest to the dogs I mean, I fed it to them while we all sat on the couch. Freida got to eat hers straight off the fork as I fed her while Billie slobbered all over my bowl. I feel it necessary to state I had at this stage entirely given up on eating the stuff.

Yes yes, dog bacteria, human cutlery blah blah. It's in the hot dishwasher now so chill out.

I am having one of those days where I have no idea where my head is. I don't mean like when I was little and mama was teaching me parts of the body and she asked ' where is your head?" and I looked thoroughly between my legs for it. I mean more like, I have no direction today.

I guess it could be because I got my period, but that's bad news because that means i've got days of this to look forward to. You know when you're alone and there is no one to hold you accountable for things? And you end up doing stuff like sharing your icecream with the dogs lick for lick? (obviously that wasn't today's dessert. Are you MENTAL it's fucking cold today...that was on another day)

Well, I woke up and there was no one in my house, and I haven't spoken to anyone on the phone and I could've gotten away with creating a tent out of my doona and lying under it all morning making up funny voices. Something made me get up, go to the gym, come home and shower then go to the chiro. I've been so alone feeling today (not in a lonely way) that when I was at the gym, I felt like I could openly stare at the women doing zoomba and that no one would see me doing it.

Then I sang to myself in the shower and watched how the little dance I was doing made the water splash on the floor of the shower. And then when I was on the way to the Chiro - i've been going for a year and a half now, I totally went in the wrong direction and found myself half way to Fabian's uni because I was thinking of him and like a compass I seemed to follow where he actually was.

By the time I got to the chiro I bounded in there talking a little too loudly and my intonation when I said sentances was a little off.

'Hello, there Phil! How are you doing, today.'

I think the weather it starting to go a little colder than I want it to and if you combine that with feeling totally not motivated for school you get a bit of a sad and bored Nani. Which is a bad combination, because when I'm like that I tend to pick fights with people who don't deserve it.

Can I just add, what the fuck is it with almost all pads now being 'odour neutralizing'? Firstly, why the fuck are all the Australian brands spelling things with z's instead of s'? Secondly, if I have my period it's meant to smell like fucking blood not like lavander. I could find ONE brand that was just normal pads. Ugh.

Okay, that was a little bit out burstish - hopefully this period won't be one where i'm completely vague and out of it interspersed with short outburts of annoyance.

Stop talking about periods now.

Nani x

Swollen

I am sorry!

Lots of reasons! Sorry I haven't written in daysI know how much the constant updates of my life enrich your own. I am also sorry that I broke the sweet/gym deal. Yes! It's true!

Yesterday, I ate the ears off of a chocolate easter bunny and I DID NOT go to the gym. However, it has been brought to my attention that, apparently, only breaking it once is in fact an achievement. So...Hoorah! Go me!

Lots of cool stuff has been happening. Like, i'm still sick. Yipee! Massively swollen/sore throat. Okay, cut the sarcasm - that was horribly 14 year old of me. Of COURSE being sick is not cool. But what is cool is that the reason I skipped the gym yesterday is because I went to a really cool talk in the city about the human dimensions of urban planning. Why was I there? Who knows! But it was really great.

The speaker was Jan Gehl and he was so so funny and inspiring. It's people like him that give me hope for the future of mankind. While I admit that may have sounded ridiculously dramatic it's also completely true. I get this weird kind of depression occasionally that I like to term 'global depression'. It's when I find myself feeling entirely helpless and depressed at the state of the globe. Which is why I find men like Jan Gehl to be amazing.

I also had a lovely dinner at the Lewis household. It's such a delight to have met some really great new people, I find it to be a hard task in Melbourne for some reason.

I started back at work today and i'll be helping my sister out with some work over the next few days which is always good. I like being able to help her out - she works really hard and she's awesome and pays me though she could probably make me do it for free.

I KNOW I've been bad with photos, BUT, I have been taking them. It's just a matter of getting them all onto my laptop from my camera and my mobile and...I know that doesn't sound hard but it is.

Oh, I also made jam with Nova the other day. Fabian's house has a Feijoa tree that was absolutely laden with fruit - so we jammed the shit out of it.

Oh, about the sweet/gym thing. It's going really well. I feel great and a lot healthier, I'm definatelly going to try and stick to it.

Love Nani xx