I’m sitting in one of the empty offices at Prahran Malvern
Community Housing where Fabians mum is generously letting me use up the
internet. I have Taylor Swift singing at me through my headphones and I feel
almost euphoric.
Outside it’s a gorgeous 29 degree day and I feel
that life is pretty close to perfect. I know that I am living through a golden
period in my life. I’m in my first apartment where everything feels perfect
even though there are water stains on the ceiling and our carpet is wonky. Our
friends are over most days and we both laugh and smile so much. Neither of us
are working or studying or doing anything but enjoying each other and what is
the summer of 2013.
Soon Fabian will go back to study, he’s been accepted into
the Masters of Urban Planning at Melbourne and I’ll get a job. The bills will
be easy to pay but stress will become a normal part of life again and I’ll go
back into therapy and these lazy days in our sun-drenched apartment will be
over.
I worry the above scenario is the inevitable but I also
wonder if it’s perhaps not. 2013 is going to be my year where I will challenge
what I think is the norm/inevitable/expected. I’ll do my best to push my limits
and live my life in a way where I put my happiness and well-being first.
Hopefully there will be more pottery, DIY, reading, writing, sleeping, laughing, cooking and dancing this year.
Wish me luck gang,
Nani xo
