Heavy

So, life is getting less heavy!

Thank god, right? Well, yes I am right, because I have been thanking god so regardless of your opinions I am right.

I just got news that my dear friend Ash is out of hospital and is on his way to the rehab center. Also I had an epiphany or two the other day as to why my last couple of months have just felt like an anvil weighing down my soul and I feel much better as a result.

I've been fasting the past couple of days which has been making me feel a little light headed but a lot better in my body. I've been eating far too much of everything and not listening to my body when it tells me it's full etc. I feel like i'm on the way to being healthy again.

The steroids feel like they're slowly draining out of my body and as a result my face is clearing up and the wierd thick feeling that's been a layer around my body and brain seem to be thinning.

I feel competent about working at the AIDS clinic tomorrow, which is the first time i've felt even slightly prepared to be there.

Also I have organised a date for Fabian and I on Saturday which i'm pretty excited about and my rooms up stairs are looking pretty damn good!

I need to mention probably the key thing to all of this is the BEAUTIFUL spring days we've been having completely out of season. I never realise quite how depressed I am until the winter stops and the sun comes back out to play.

It's been a tonic for my soul I swear, the air smells different and it just makes me want to run I get so filled with energy.

Anyway, I was looking over this blog the other day and realised I hadn't posted any photos in AN AGE. So, i'll be trying to fix that.


Nani x